For
today...
Outside
my window...it's chilly. I
love crisp, cool autumn mornings.
I
am thinking...about taking a
walk a little later today when someone can sit with Boo. Walking in
the cool autumn air, hearing the crunch of fallen leaves under my
feet, watching squirrels hastily gathering nuts for the rapidly
approaching winter: oh, I can't wait!
I
am thankful...for the
discussions Boo and I have on occasion these days. Although Boo's
memory is definitely more impaired than it was, there are still
moments when it's still there. For those moments, I am truly
grateful. I have the man I fell in love with back for just a little
while.
In
the kitchen...is yogurt
incubating. Later today, we'll have strawberry yogurt. I may bake
some homemade graham crackers to go with it.
I
am wearing...gray knit pants, a
striped turtleneck, socks and clogs. I love
turtlenecks and sweaters of all kinds!
I
am creating...a
crocheted basket. This simple pattern I found on pinterest. One can
never have enough baskets and I'm using up bits and pieces of yarn
that I've had for years.
I
am going...around
the corner to buy more cat food from Family Dollar. Boudreaux is
running low on dry food. Woe, to me if I allow his dish to get
empty. I tried telling him about the starving kitties who don't have
food all day, every day. He was definitely uninterested. A full
dish equals a happy cat.
I
am wondering...what
I can do to interest Boo in spending some time outside. He's been
afraid of leaving the house lately...even to sit on the deck outside
our bedroom window, even when Boudreaux accompanies him. Boo needs
time outside, needs to enjoy the fresh air and needs to observe the
changes in the weather. Life spent constantly inside rapidly becomes
too mundane, too dull. Pushing past his fear to do things he really
does enjoy is problematic, but doable.
I
am reading...a
book on Lectio Devina, rereading The Chosen,
by Chaim Potok and anything that Boo asks to have read. Last night,
it was an article from the local city newspaper about the NC zoo.
I
am hoping...Boo
will be awake and alert when Lucy comes to bring Communion a little
later this morning. He so looks forward to receiving Communion.
Sometimes he looks forward to it so much that by the time Lucy
arrives, he's exhausted and can't really participate.
I
am learning...to
let go of those things which I simply can't change. Learning slowly,
but learning nonetheless. Boo's mental status is changing and
nothing we do seems to help. I'll keep trying some things, but I'm
learning not to worry and struggle so much. This part of life, of
being a mature adult, I
do not like.
I want things to be as they were. I want to believe that if I try
hard enough I can make everything as it was. The reality is that I
can't.
Around
the house...it's
very quiet. Too quiet. It may be time to shake things up a little.
A
favorite quote for today...”At
the end of your life, you will never regret not having passed one
more test, not winning one more verdict, or not closing one more
deal. You will regret time not spent with a husband, a child, a
friend or a parent.” Barbara
Bush
One
of my favorite things...spending
time with Boo and Boudreaux. Just being. Not necessarily doing
anything. Just being. Oh, and autumn. I really enjoy autumn.
Enjoyed your daybook.
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